The biggest love in the world...

I sit here staring at Kellen while he's on the floor playing with his activity mat.  I love it when he looks up at me and then smiles real big and kicks like he's so excited to see me.  His smile is the most wonderful thing I have ever experienced. It is all the joy I have ever felt all wrapped up in one little baby boy.  I love watching him learn and explore and play.  When either Patrick and/or I are holding him, we kiss him constantly. I wonder if he ever gets sick of it.  I just want to kiss his little head forever and ever.  I look at him and honestly I can't imagine loving someone more, and I can't imagine a more beautiful child.  I wonder what I did to deserve this love that I have dreamed of for years and years.  I prayed for this, back when I was living in Florida and feeling very alone.  I remember staying up late at night thinking about how I wished my life would be...and this is it.  Except I wish my mom were here.


Kellen woke up today with the MOST horrible god-awful diaper rash I have ever seen.  It made me want to cry.  The only thing I can think of is that I fed him avocado for the first time yesterday.  And probably the last time!  We put, as Patrick calls it, the "butt spackle" on...and it was better this evening...although still not pretty.  If I could beat up an avocado...I would.


Today I bought some organic pears at Target and made some fabulous pear puree.  Funny...it tastes a lot like applesauce!  Next vegetable will be carrots.  Next fruit is peaches.  It is so hilarious to give him his first taste of anything.  He makes the most hilarious face...like I'm trying to poison him or something.  And then he opens his mouth for more!  Funny boy.