6-18-10 Kellen saying La La La!

The biggest love in the world...

I sit here staring at Kellen while he's on the floor playing with his activity mat.  I love it when he looks up at me and then smiles real big and kicks like he's so excited to see me.  His smile is the most wonderful thing I have ever experienced. It is all the joy I have ever felt all wrapped up in one little baby boy.  I love watching him learn and explore and play.  When either Patrick and/or I are holding him, we kiss him constantly. I wonder if he ever gets sick of it.  I just want to kiss his little head forever and ever.  I look at him and honestly I can't imagine loving someone more, and I can't imagine a more beautiful child.  I wonder what I did to deserve this love that I have dreamed of for years and years.  I prayed for this, back when I was living in Florida and feeling very alone.  I remember staying up late at night thinking about how I wished my life would be...and this is it.  Except I wish my mom were here.


Kellen woke up today with the MOST horrible god-awful diaper rash I have ever seen.  It made me want to cry.  The only thing I can think of is that I fed him avocado for the first time yesterday.  And probably the last time!  We put, as Patrick calls it, the "butt spackle" on...and it was better this evening...although still not pretty.  If I could beat up an avocado...I would.


Today I bought some organic pears at Target and made some fabulous pear puree.  Funny...it tastes a lot like applesauce!  Next vegetable will be carrots.  Next fruit is peaches.  It is so hilarious to give him his first taste of anything.  He makes the most hilarious face...like I'm trying to poison him or something.  And then he opens his mouth for more!  Funny boy.

OH my aching back!

So, I was supposed to work with the employee health nurse today, but that flexeril (muscle relaxant) I take at night makes me all jello-like.  Not pretty.  I don't like it.  My back still bothers me and the other medicine the doctor gave me (Mobic) doesn't work very well, either.  Ibuprofen works way better, so I'll just stick with that.  What I think will REALLY help is some massage.  I have a gift cert to Massage Envy; I need to just go in and make an appt.

Took the infant car seat out of my car and put the Britax car seat in. This way, I'm not lugging around Kellen + car seat.  When I'm holding Kellen close to me, he doesn't feel heavy. Of course, now, whenever I go shopping, he gets to sit in the front seat of the cart like a big boy!!!  That should be interesting!  Hopefully he can hold himself up.

MAN, I'm not looking forward to packing up this house!!!  It's a tad overwhelming.  Anyone up to packing  boxes???

Gotta move!

We just got notice today that we have to move out; the owner of our condo needs to move back in.   AGH! Fortunately, Aunt Ida works with someone at the Plano Symphony office that is renting a house in Plano (less than a mile from where I work)!!  So, this is it.  It's a little dated, with slightly horrible wallpaper, but nothing I can't live with. Heck, maybe they'll let me paint and stuff and reimburse me???  We'll see!  So, it's in an awesome location, probably 2-3 miles from Aunt Ida and Uncle Paul, less than a mile from the hospital where I work, and less than a mile from the Montessori school where we take Kellen. Patrick is also fairly close to work, too. 3 bedroom, 2 bath, 2 car garage! Lots of storage, big master walk-in closet, huge bath in the master.  It's not a huge house by any means, but it's nice. Patrick gets to see it on Saturday. The neighborhood is awesome too...very pleasant, clean, nice lawns.  What does everyone think??

What it feels like to be eaten by a baby...

I did some pretty-ing up of the place...you like?

I am now on forced paid vacation because of hurting my back. Woe is me. Actually, I was stunned to realize that I DON'T wanna miss work! I LOVE work! What the hell am I going to do at home?? Well, tomorrow is day one...and I'm going to make some homemade Kellen-food. I have a few sweet potatoes and some peas. I'm going to boil them and make some puree and add some spices. Kellen needs some SPICE in his life! Nothing crazy mind you. But a little cinnamon with the sweet potatoes??  YUM! I have a baby food making book...I will have FUN!

You won't like it when I'm angry!!

Tonight was rough. I got off work 3 hrs early because they didn't want to pay me OT (rrr!), so I picked up Kellen from day care, went to Babies R Us and got his FIRST sippy cups ever (!!), then went home. Little man and I hung out on my bed for a while...he was pretty content to roll around and bounce on his knees, but he started to get a little fussy. They told me that he last ate at 4pm, so next bottle was at 8pm (or bedtime). Needless to say...he did NOT make it to 6pm without having a total meltdown. So I tried to feed him some oatmeal and mashed bananas. He had a few bites, but for some reason started to really lose it, as if I had put a giant quantity of cayenne pepper in his food. He would stop crying when I put the spoon up to him, but as soon as I pulled the spoon out of his mouth, he would get so PISSED OFF! He wanted to just sit there and gnaw on the spoon. After a few more bites...he was just crying constantly, I had to stop.

I put him in the tub...which chilled him out for a little bit...but then he lost his little mind again...again acting like I was killing him or something. I was actually a little worried! So, I had the bottle warmed, which of course settled him down immediately. He sucks down his bottles in 5 mins flat. He was rubbing his face and scratching his head...TIRED!!  So, I sat him up...he proceeded NOT to spit up, but actually projectile vomit all over himself, me, and the floor (which I managed to forget about and then step in later with my bare feet...NICE).

I took him straight to bed...and he turned over on his side and fall asleep without protest within minutes.  He actually doesn't usually EVER protest when he goes to bed...I hope this little quality of his lasts FOREVER!

This week will be his last week at the Montessori school till August. My awesome 16 yr old cousin, Jamie, will be watching Kellen for us on the two or three days that one of us actually isn't home. This will be a HUGE savings in $$ for us...maybe now I can pay off my medical bills from having the baby!  Plus, it will make me so happy that he's with family...at home. I hope he doesn't drive her crazy, although she sits with him whenever we go out, so she's familiar with his hijinks. Actually, Kellen has very few hijinks. I'm sure he will gain lots of hijinks in the next month or so as he learns to crawl...